why are you so against college? and you don't have to go into debt THAT much, or ever at all. i dunno what texas is like, but california pays for poor people like me $4500 a year to go to a JC. once i moe up in life (hopefully in the fall) and go to a 4-year university, i'll get $10,000+. You have to be pretty poor for that money, but my parents having (almost) 12 kids, never hurt that factor at least. I love school. And yes, you do have your share or morons, but you take it with a grain of salt. It's not life high school. You can pick what classes you want and the teachers you want. I am majoring in photography, something I love doing. Anyways, just wondered what you have against college.

And...as far as appearance goes, will your hair fit in a pony tail for a job interview? And if that bio pic is anything...SHAVE. (heaven help us all... ) And who cares about your stutter? It does not make you unable to understand. Do you explain to people that you have a stutter and that it has nothing to do with your intelligence? Try craigslist.com for a job?

Anyways, if you are not working. GO TO SCHOOL. Even if it's just 1 or 2 classes. Something you like. How do you know you won't like it if you haven't gotten your feet wet. And go here: http://www.fafsa.ed.gov/ and apply for a grant. If you're as poor as me you'll get a bit of money too.

Hope you feel better soon. And be careful with those drugs.

Yeah, what Semper said. Also, I'd say move up here and go to school with me and we could rent a place.. But I'm only "hopefully" going to be in town for another couple of years. But you 'should' look at going to school. There is a difference between focusing on one topic and becoming stupider.. I don't know nearly as much about all sorts of things as I used to, but get me started with chemistry and I'll leave almost everyone in the dust (unless they are chemists).